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Coming to terms with reality

Monday, December 11, 2017

I'm going to be totally honest, this past couple of weeks have not been the best. I found my first gray hair (I think, anyway.) I learned that I should start wearing reading glasses, and I started physical therapy on my knee. All that in quick succession was hard on my ego. We had our children at a young age, and I have never felt my age. Until the last year or so, I really have not experienced physical limitations other than issues created by carrying too many extra pounds. You know, huffing and puffing after climbing a lot of stairs. emoticon I am the youngest in my family, and my siblings have been gray and wearing glasses for years. Somehow, I thought that I was immune. Life is laughing at me right now. Honestly my hair going gray is not a huge concern other than having to make the eventual decision of what, if anything, to do about it. But combined with my other issues, I feel like I am falling apart. My bum knee has attributed to my weight gain, and has made it more difficult to lose weight. I was trying to do the balancing act of doing enough, but not too much. Hopefully, the physical therapy will get me back on track. The thought of wearing reading glasses just makes me cringe. The idea of having to take them on and off and keeping track of them just fills me with dread. I constantly lose my phone, and that talks back to me at least occasionally. I don't know how I will keep track of glasses that I only need part of the time. However, soon I will be working on my computer 12 hours a day or more, and I just need to suck it up. My therapist suggested a stationary bike, and I did make that purchase. I think it will be fine, but it seems a little lame, to be honest. I have only used it once, and I know that I can increase speed and resistance, but I am still working on strengthening the knee so I didn't want to push too hard. I just didn't work up a sweat. I am used to exercising, and having to change my clothes afterwards. What is happening to me? I think that I have to admit that I am now middle-age. I just don't want to feel that way. I want to feel strong, not weak and limited. I realize that a lot of people have much more serious issues to deal with, and that all of this will seems ridiculous in time, but right now I having to come to terms with my new reality. And I don't like it. emoticon
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  • COMEBACKKID12
    Hey there! Well, I can relate to feeling younger than your age ;))I color my hair and people say I look 17 yrs younger than my age. I started greying in my 30's. emoticon But then again, I didn't get all those 'age indicators' pop up one after another. BUT I seem to be breaking down here and there recently, over the past year. I injured my back from an office job 20 years ago. emoticon People said You Better Sue because it's your back, You Don't Know What Will Happen to You in the Future, yadda yadda. BUT I'll have you know that I had a bone density scan, early than the usual age, last year and the doctor said my back is GOOD. Yeah, after my back injury of 1999 I took darn good care of my back with what people were telling me about my back. So, we adjust and we Fight Back. It's a bit upsetting I know. Hopefully you can find something that can make you feel young again. emoticon You'll find it! emoticon Take care
    1076 days ago
  • MARCIALS51
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    I like your blog, it is truthful and real.I am 65. I have a head full of gray hair and I get shots in my knees so I can move.I wear my glasses all the time.I forget what I wanted when I come into a room. These things have happened to me BUT I DID'T STOP! I keep moving and I try to eat healthier all to change my health so I can see Granddaughter graduate from highschool and on to college. See all the first of my Great Granddaughter. My body is getting old But I AM STILL IN CHARGE!
    1079 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14456645
    emoticon nods... life is like that sometimes (as is our feelings about it ;)
    1080 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/12/2017 10:13:54 PM
  • GEORGE815
    Good luck
    1081 days ago
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