Twilight...for every ending there’s a new beginning.
Friday, January 05, 2018
I just read what I wrote about this time last year. I’m glad 2017 has come to an end. I didn’t make much progress, well, maybe.
Last January my hubby went in the hospital and was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis. Three weeks later he as in the hospital downtown having emergency surgery for a perforated colon. 2/3 of his colon was removed and he ended up with a colostomy. After 4 more hospitalizations and 3 more surgeries, he’s well, he’s had the ostomy reversed and is trying to get back to “normal.” Mom was in the hospital for a week sometime or other (she too with bowel issues) and Daddy almost went in about that same time for the same thing. I picked up a second clinic at work that was more of a challenge than I thought—with lots of staff turnover including the administrator. Fortunately the awesome folks I work at my regular clinic ended up doing both clinics which made life a LOT easier.
I had just resumed walking after work for a mile or two when all this kicked in. I’ve managed to keep up my Sunday practices with my hurling team and play in three of the tournaments. It’s my main motivation to get back in shape as most of the team is half my age (old enough to be my offspring) and are also in the military. There’s one other woman on the team; we all have a blast!
One of the main reasons I mention my husband’s challenges is that he is on a low residue diet until he gets all healed back up. He eats mostly meat, processed foods, sweets. I’m a vegetarian trying to avoid processed foods and added sugar/artificial sweeteners. It’s been a challenge. My coworkers eat about like he does, but the biggest advantage there is that I don’t have to worry about them getting into my food! I just can’t go in the break room when there’s sweets in there...or they won’t be for long.
So, with the end of 2017, I went to a week long meditation retreat (no beeping machines!!!) and reconnected with my spiritual path. I’ve been able to initiate some sort of a practice since I’ve been back. One goal from last year finally completed. I can finally say I’m definitely well rested (one good thing about having the crud). I have some focus. I have identified some things I can delegate at work. The mess at the house is still there; I still have the timer and the pull-a-task-from-the-bag to work with and help me get started.
I love twilight! It happens twice a day and reminds me that this is just life in transition. The future is not set in stone. Each decision I make influences my path on this journey; it’s my journey. There will be light and there will be dark and some of the richest colors are where they meet. Without either there will be no growth.
Welcome to the opportunities that await in 2018!