Sunday, February 4, 2018
Sunday, February 04, 2018
I decided that if I committed myself to one blog a month I would be successful.
So far this year I'm 100%- woo hoo!
I've been learning to address my inner voices that come up when I step out of my comfort zone. This is really hard to do because my natural reaction for years has been to ignore those feelings, stuff those feelings down with food, or distract myself with some other activity so that I don't have to "feel."
I'm learning to push myself in little ways, and then sit with all the feelings that come up without judgement. I intentionally show myself kindness and love. It's still not easy to do, but I can face the exercises without fear (in the past I would want to run or avoid the activity.)
So what has that got to do with weight loss?
Well, for me it has everything to do with it. If you don't address how unhappy you are with your weight or fitness level you cannot make the necessary changes.
If I don't learn to hold on to and appreciate negative feelings, I will always turn to food to avoid them.
Avoidance doesn't make a problem go away, it usually makes the problem worse. My issue is that my default setting is to fight feeling my feelings because they are overwhelming and don't make me feel good.
It's all about baby steps, and that's hard for someone who wants instant change! My impatience currently receives my love and compassion, and surprisingly has become a quieter voice when it's acknowledged.
So now I'll sign off and address a pile of papers that is making my anxious. I'll be the one breathing deeply and gratefully loving all the feelings that well up.