So, here I go again?!?
Monday, February 05, 2018
So, I'm really trying to get started agin. I realize I had all my success before because I had my attitude in the right space. So that is where I need to start. Posting funny pictures and making "promises" isn't gong to do me any good.
I was yapping with my hubby earlier and I came to a huge realization. See, for some ridiculous reason, I've been "pretending to care" about what people around me think of me lately. I need to explain, see in all reality I've never really cared what people thought of me. I've always been on the outside. It's actually where I'm most comfortable.
But since work blew up and my health issues started (about 18 months ago), I've been doing the whole fit in/normal/expected thing. I don't fit in - and I don't want to. I'm far from normal and that is who I like. And expected is nothing that ever described me before.
So why was I trying to do these things. I honestly don't know! How stupid is that?!?! I changed myself into something I've never wanted to be for absolutely NO KNOWN REASON!! So now I have to find my way back to who I was and want to be.
So that's the start of the attitude adjustment. Who I AM is more important than what people think I am or who someone else wants me to be. I am me, and that's all I've ever wanted to be.