Yup still trying/realizations
Friday, February 23, 2018
Ever just let your mind THINK. I mean, just let it do it's thing ans see where the ride takes you?
I was doing that today and came to a few discoveries.
1) I really want to be more active here on Spark. I was having fun when I was here all the time and I was making progress I was proud of. I don't know what keeps me away. I just don't - lazy is probably my issue.
2) My only real regrets in life are when I have listened to "people" and made decision based off "their" opinions/advise. I've put this in quotes because the "people" have been many and varied through the years. From little to big, I only regret when I listen to the "people" that know better or want to "help" me fit in better. Or worse, want to help me do things the "proper way".
3) The happiest times of my life are when I've been going "against the herd." I need to be who and what I am - the rest be damned.
And the worst part is I KNOW this. I really do. I KNOW and UNDERSTAND all of this but I still buckle and cave now and again. And I rack up another regret, from things as big as a marriage to as small as cutting my hair or my clothes. Just need to know when I'm going to learn better.