A Rough Week

This week was a nightmare, but really it has been a rough month. Work is chaotic, I'm behind in school work, I'm stressed and I can't seem to get motivated. I feel like a failure all of the way around. Friday I came home from work and worked on a document that I had to have in to our clinical director by today. I finally put it away at 10:30 and went to bed. I was back up at 2:30 and worked for five hours until I had to leave for a car maintenance appointment. While we waited on my car, I vented to my husband. After lunch I realized that I was just done. I was so tired and my stress level was so high that I wasn't going to get anything accomplished. I truly just wanted to quit my job and grad school so I didn't have to deal with the stress. Of course that is not the answer. So I decided to give myself the rest of the day off. I took a three hour nap, watched television and then went back to bed and read a book for an hour before falling asleep at 10:30. Things looked better this morning.

I know that I need to take care of myself. I know that I need to take time for myself, I need to do things that I enjoy and that I have to stop being so hard on myself. I also know that when I exercise I feel better, have more focus and am more motivated. It is just so hard to allow myself the time that it takes to do these things. However, I got up this morning and spent some time making an exercise schedule for the next two months. I have worked on homework and plan to go for a run when it warms up a little bit. Today I am going to reboot. I am going to continue to work hard and do everything I can to be successful, but I am also going to focus on myself. I am going to do what I need to do to get healthy. I am going to listen to my body and take breaks when I need to, and I am going to allow myself mental health breaks so I can recharge.