I almost missed March!
Saturday, March 31, 2018
I just looked and just realized that I didn't blog once in March. I really want to be here daily and blog at least weekly. I know I can do this so what the H3LL is my problem?
I look for blame everywhere but I know the reasons rest with me. I've lost my faith in myself. That is a hard thing to get back. It's different for confidence. Confidence I have in spades! Faith, that unshaking, unwaivering KNOWLEDGE of something that you can't prove or put your finger on. I've been missing that for a while. Not certain how or when I lost it but it's gone.
Now, I know that I can build it back a bit with small successes, or at least I think I can. I had it once, I can have it again. I did this once. I was 135, running a 5K every month, 20K steps a day, and really feeling good about me. I had faith it would always last. Then I fell apart. That is where the faith started to fail. My confidence failed. The I went to H in a hand basket.
So, no it is time to climb out of the HLL I've created for myself. I need to focus, that is for certain. Can't do it all at once. I think I need to start with movement. Moving makes me feel better, makes me happy, and it is something I can SEE.
So April's goal is to move my booty every day. Back to walking the dogs and my mini-tramp. It is as close to spring as we get in Chicago so being snowed in is not an excuse. On that note, Tazzy, Dizzy, and I are out of here!
Faith starts in each of us.