Thursday, April 19, 2018
I'm noticing changes that are not weight related. For example, I used to crave candy and sweets constantly - and sadly, I gave in to that craving more often than I like to admit. This week, I have not had anything from the sweets category except fruit and the tiny bit of sugar I like in my morning coffee. A co-worker even offered me some caramel M&M's and was completely surprised when I turned them down and explained that I wasn't wasting my calories on something I didn't want. Of course, I surprised myself too when it happened. I was also raised in a time when you were taught to clean your plate. You were made to feel guilty by the adults if you "wasted" food at a meal with the common "there are children starving somewhere who would love to eat what you're wasting". So, that mentality carried into adulthood and I've always felt that I had to eat everything I took or was given. I've started paying more attention to my body's cues when I've had enough and have begun leaving food on my plate... I'm sure my grandparents are rolling over in their graves from that! I have even had days when I just felt like I had way too much pent up energy and needed to so something to burn it off. I started caring about muscle mass and the quality of my sleep. As a musician, my body has learned to survive on very little sleep and mass amounts of caffeine, but everything is changing. I believe my mindset is actually adjusting to a healthier lifestyle. Over the past several years, I've studied Fitness & Nutrition, Relaxation Therapy, Holistic Health and Reiki. I thought perhaps I hadn't really learned anything, but maybe this is proof that more knowledge sank in than I realized... and most importantly, that my brain took it all personally and has decided to cooperate with my efforts! This is odd and exciting. I welcome the change!