Wednesday, May 02, 2018
Check-in: I am working hard to stay positive, after a really difficult low day last week.
Wage garnishment, they refuse to negotiate. They don’t put people into debtor’s prison anymore, but it feels like I’m financially imprisoned. I was trying to sew my financial life back together and received my first one from delinquent debt nearly 10 years old. I turn 40 this year, my 401k is empty, my savings is low, and my job is threatened. This is not a healthy place to be. Further, I’m worried about being able to have enough money for food (my biggest splurge expenses, and a little bit unchecked.)
I restarted my deliberate mindfulness of gratitude. I am trying my hardest to envision a path through this, instead of destructive escape. It has been a legitimately treacherous climb out of the downward spiral. I’m increasing my daily step intake to help deal with my anxious energy. And I’m hoping that these things work. I'm also contacting a professional therapist. Everything feels so broken.