Rains poured strongly once again yesterday, wiping out any outside walking whatsoever.
But I shared my two blogs from the end of last week, encouraged that I am on the right track. Writing to myself allows a more confidential honesty whereas I merely semi circle at best when talking to anyone else, even though the subjects are universal (for so many of us).
How come I address today's letter to Body rather than to Food? I suppose it ties in and reveals some continuity as I think these issues through. It seems that my discovery of any inverse discomfort (in living inside myself here) is essential in fielding strange feelings.
If growth is always an opportunity born from discomfort, I discovered that it is effective to make perspiration the exchange distress for fattening up with food numbing. Distress: to undo or separate from stress. If this is what I'll call emotional logic, welcoming opportunity to deactivate my tendency to separate from my higher self core is just as essential a piece of my "wokeness" like waking up from sleep or stretching out my muscles. I must speak from the place where alignment needs to exercise. My body mind and soul need thorough, periodic airing outs!
I walked a ton Saturday morning to and from my meeting and skipped yesterday altogether due to pouring rains. I wrote both blogs but took yesterday off from adding another as well. Today I gave myself the marching orders to sufficiently go walking again.
And to this I ought to address right now rather than ruminate from my chair. The key dear body is to make working you the first order of each day to get you properly sweaty and spent out of the way. Then mental must-do items can be addressed. I am switching up my patterns, Body, to bring your care into more of a priority position in my days. My brain will process more sharply by designing the pattern of walking, eating, and to-do items in that order very mindfully. I take leave for this schedule.
I don't feel what I wrote this morning has remained true to my assignment well enough. Judgement in response to feeling like I am off track.
You keep the scale reading too high to assuage my distress. It's YOU I must redress more completely before moving on to my body.
I noticed I delayed dinner in order to have a deep 90 minute share with a sponsee last night. That felt healthy. Could have eaten less but chose to have what I chose. I'm avoiding calling out specific foods at this time because I think quantity is a bigger culprit than item. Sure, sugar and flour can be issues, but measured amounts feel right for the long haul.
I may stop writing to you and see if what you do for me has any further substitutes. Self appraisal listing what I DO do right is modifying my mind into positive affirmative messages. That's the next step. That's where I tip toe.