Thoughts of the day
Monday, June 18, 2018
I'm down 25 pounds since the beginning of the year - woohoo! My motivation has luckily been staying very strong, but I am coming off 3 days of "falling off the wagon" so to speak. I was able to get myself back on track yesterday, but I'm definitely worried of the next time, because let's face it, i'm human & there will be a next time! I just pray that this is the time that this healthy lifestyle sticks permanently. I have been using a book called "The Beck Diet Solution" & really love the program (I highly recommend if you are a planner & like to do things your own way). What I noticed about falling off the wagon this time was that I had gained a lot of skills over the few weeks I have been using the Beck Diet Solution & even though I consider those 3 days not on track, in the back of my mind I still was being MUCH more consciencious of what I was putting in my tummy, making sure to get some extra steps in to try & help counteract the extra calories & kept tracking (even though I hated to see the calorie total). In the past when I got off track, everything went out the window & I didn't get back on track for months! I think it was actually a good experience this time because I got to enjoy some extra calories I had been craving but I still was able to reign it in. I'll call it a success!
Another thing that has really been weighing heavily on my mind is that I read an article on line showing the statistics of a morbidly obese person losing the weight & then actually keeping it off - it was a dismal number, something like 1 in a million actually succeed long term - definitely not what I wanted to hear. Now in the back of my mind I keep thinking - how can I possibly be that 1 in a million that turns things around? Why should I even try if I'm just going to fail again. But - here I am, still trying! Please, please let me be that 1 in a million! Fingers & toes crossed!