Monday, June 25, 2018
I've been on this weight loss journey for as long as I can remember (I was an overweight preschooler). I have yo-yo dieted several times, but really feel like this time I understand better what skills I need to practice however, I still have a fear inside of me that this time will be like all the others. I'll drop 40-50 pounds & then skyrocket up another 60-70 pounds when the going gets tough. I'm down 25 pounds at this point & still feel like i'm in control but starting to slip a little.
I did not have the best eating weekend, that's for sure. I still tracked it all (or at least what I can remember) and it was so disheartening to see how much I ate. I felt like I probably ate an extra 500 calories, but no, one day I ate an extra 1,000! I definitely didn't feel any more full - because I had chosen to eat things like candy bars & fried foods. I am trying to get it through my head that those euphoric feelings I get while sinking my teeth into the candy bar are fleeting & then i'm left with hours of regret afterward, but every time that chocolate bar is put in front of me, for some reason I just instantly forget & devour it on the spot. I'm going to move & live for today. As long as I have more good days than bad & keep trying, i'm still on a much better path than I was.