Balance in Inbalance

This has been a rough week for me. I started the week with me and my team having to work 1st AND 3rd shift in one day. I argued with my management that this wasn't necessary or a good idea, but I was unsuccessful in convincing them. The result is everyone is dragging through the week, and morale took a hit. The good news is management does see the effect, and hopefully, it has sunk in.

I can certainly feel the impact of one day sleep deprivation. My entire week, I've felt out of it. My exercise performance decreased, and I just feel off. This morning I felt an unpleasant scratch in my throat. It becomes apparent to me I'm just not going to be able to feel balanced until I get some time off this weekend and allow myself to get into a natural rhythm to straighten out.

Whatever my troubles, though, I think to the Thailand boys who were trapped in the cave these past several weeks. What a great lesson in perseverance, the will to live, and the amazing things we can accomplish if we care for others more than ourselves.

There's no doubt that they made a near fatal mistake going into the caves, but regardless on the how or why, I think it is a true leadership from the soccer coach that saved them. Even in the darkness amongst hopelessness, they seemed to believe in hope. Somehow, they managed to find serenity and peace in the darkness. That could only come from someone guiding them, and making them believe they were going to be ok against all hopelessness.

So while I am feeling groggy and out of it, it is perspective. I am grateful that this is temporary and I will get back to normal after a weekend of RnR. The boys meditated in order to stay calm in hopelessness, so maybe I should just take a moment to breathe. I feel like I've let my team down because I wasn't able to change the outcome, but I'll try a different approach if the situation arises again.