Thursday, July 12, 2018
I had a productive and happy day! I got up early (for a vacation day), got hubby some coffee and food, and then did laundry, ran the dishwasher, hopped on a work conference call (even though I am off, this was pre-scheduled), took some me time, and then took hubby out for dinner to his favorite restaurant for some healthy eats. I had a salad along with a handful of chips and salsa, and red snapper for dinner. I am really proud of myself for getting some stuff done today and not just loafing around.
I am making progress in my eating, and feeling like I am able to improve myself. I am working on banishing negative thoughts.
I accepted an invitation to a friend's bridal shower. I am better friends with the groom, but I do love the bride also. It is a big step for me --- going to an event, where the only person I know is the bride -- but I figure it will also help me meet others before the wedding. I do have a "chair" phobia (like breaking them if it is a weak little banquet chair), but I figured the worst thing that could happen would be I would need to ask for another chair. Would that be mortifying? Yes? But would it be the end of the world? No. And if that is what it takes, than that is what it takes. Chair fear could also be unfounded, but between now and Sept. 2, I will just need to keep working on getting lighter. It won't resolve it, but I bet I can lose 10 pounds.
I am feeling like I got this. My belief in myself is back. I am strong, generous, resilient person and there is every reason why i should be there for my friends.
I don't want to keep wasting my life because I am afraid of things that I cannot control. This is just one more piece to my puzzle, and I am solving it.
Here's hoping you are feeling empowered to tackle your X. I can do it, and so can you! We got this!