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Friday, November 16, 2018

I'm needing to vent. I'm in a really bad funk that's really starting to take a toll. I'm really tired.... Of not being able to find a full time job that utilizes my skills and education and will leave me satisfied. Of not being able to move to full time in my current company, despite being a top performer when compared to others in the same district in the same position. Of people looking at my weight and presuming I'm not active (despite knowing I'm the only person at my job who bikes to work, discussing what trails I took my latest Instagram photos on, where I went skiing). Of getting paid so little I can't travel to see my family. Of having to spend holidays alone. Of not being able to find good male companionship. Of getting paid so little I really can't afford more than the necessities right now nor do things like ski this upcoming winter. Of getting knocked flat on my ass every single time I start to get ahead.
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  • no profile photo CD23858752
    I would ask your company why they will not give you full time if you are the top producer as you said. Ask them to be honest. If they hired you in the first place then it is not your weight. Maybe you are using that for an excuse. Something to think about. Good Luck
    876 days ago
    You need to start to think positive and be thankful for what you have and then your life may change
    876 days ago
    Life can be very exhausting...Life is all about choices. Learning to focus on the positive ..still knowing that the negative is there but choosing not to dwell on it..I am learning to live a life of gratitude..not easy at times but everyday i have a choice..to be better or bitter...it really is that simple.. I hope you get to feeling better..take care of you..you are important
    876 days ago
  • CINDY247
    So sorry for your troubles Maybe just maybe instead of focusing on all your tired of Place your focus on all your thankful for that may help to change your perspective Best wishes and keep on sparking!
    876 days ago
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