Thoughts on CBD
Monday, November 26, 2018
The past week has been full of ups and downs.
My anxiety got really out of hand, and ended up sparking a major argument with my fiance. This led to more anxiety. We still haven't resolved things, but are working on it... slow but sure.
My doctor prescribes me Ativan for my anxiety, but I hate taking it. It makes me fall asleep. On the one hand, if I'm asleep, I'm not losing my mind in a panic... but on the other hand, it doesn't give me the chance to figure out how to handle the underlying causes of anxiety.
After three and a half days of absolutely losing my mind to anxiety, my roommate stepped in. She had me try an oral CBD oil, and my god... it's been a miracle drug for me. All it takes is a drop or two, and I am able to calm down. This calm is so unlike the dopey state the Ativan puts me in. I'm not sleepy, and I am clear-headed. This has done so much for me.
Since I've found this way to calm down and focus, I have made so much progress. I was able to enroll myself in an intensive outpatient therapy program for the next few weeks. I've been exercising. I've been meditating. I've been writing. I've been reading a book on stress reduction.
I don't plan on using the CBD oil forever... it's just a tool I'm using while I sort my life out.