1 week back into the swing of things!

Today marks one week of post op! It has been quite the roller coaster of emotions!

Last Friday I went to the Doctor to be released from surgery. The things he told me where not exactly what I wanted to hear. I had a sling and whatnot done and I am no longer able to
Deadlift
Squat
Bench Press
Row
Crunches
Anything pushing or pulling or straining or even lift more than 20 pounds
EVER AGAIN.........
Unless I want to run the risk of having to have surgery again!

Um I guess there goes that entire workout I had planned while I was on bedrest.

I got released otherwise and was healed, but my human mind wanted to focus only on the things that I was told I couldn't do instead of focusing on all the positive.

I got into the truck, and I just started to bawl and say why me why cant I do the plan I had goals I am so sad I will always look mess I will always have this gut that I have never had I will always look bloated... it was horrible and then I wanted to go straight to mcdonalds (or some other fast food place) and buy the meal and upsize and wallow in my self pity.

Fortunately I had my hubby with me and he said babes there is so much that you CAN do now. Lets look at the good!
He then took me to the gym where we talked to the personal trainer and we are having him come up with some other ways i can tone without weights and he is going to set a plan just for me!

I worked out that afternoon and then I was feeling much better. We did some work around the house, we are remodeling the entire upstairs and we worked nonstop all weekend... I ate really well so I was pumped to go to the gym to weigh on Monday....
Well I showed up there and weighed the same as I did on Friday.... I was FLOORED but really I am not sure where this mindset is coming from ... So I looked at my hubby and said please make sure that I do not weigh in again until January 1... which is what I always do... I cant do this once a week thing because I get so discouraged!!!

Anyways so Monday, Tuesday were pretty okay. then Wednesday I was super frustrated and wanted to just be back into my clothes pre surgery and again I was complaining...
Wes said stop complaining and do something about it...

Wednesday I did HIIT on the elliptical for 60 minutes and got off of there feeling amazing. I did body weight ST on Thursday and then yesterday Killed it on the elliptical with the HIIT then we bowled..

I met my 12,000 step goal all the days and still had times of negativity!

Here is to a new week.... new goals... and more self love... more time to realize that I a human and that this will take some time and that I am also 46 pounds down from my heaviest still even after a baby and a major procedure!!!

Have a wonderful week everyone and lets remember to love ourselves and our bodies.
Be kind to ourselves and reward our accomplishments no matter how minuscule they seem... little things add up to big ones.

Muah xoxoxo
Maeg