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Day 1 - A Crushing Blow

Thursday, December 20, 2018

For months, I have talked about needing to "lose weight." Don't know about anyone else, but I HATE that phrase. I don't want to "lose" weight. I want to OBLITERATE it. I have so many valid and concerning reasons for needing to be more healthy than I am, pre-diabetic, 1st child c-section due to tail end preeclampsia, swelling, edema, gestational diabetes...but I sit here and confess...I lacked the motivation. Last night, I received that motivation...as defeating as it was. I'd rather not divulge the circumstances or the conversation, as it was painful enough to live through once, I'd rather not re-live it again. 28 years old, mother of a very spirited and perfect little 1 and a half year old mini me, and thought the tears, ready to start this grueling journey. I know I will shed many more before I complete this first full week of my Spark Journey, but I am open to all advice, tips, and or encouragement as my self-esteem has been all but crushed by the painful birth of my motivation.
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  • POSEY440
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    426 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. And remember you didn't gain the weight overnight and you won't lose it overnight. It takes time, determination, motivation and support. You can get it all right here! If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. If I can help in anyway, feel free to reach out to me! Don't expect this to happen overnight, take it one day one decision at a time. You will love the results. Forget the negative and start looking for the positives. My clothes are fitting looser, I can walk more, I can chase my baby around. These are all things in your future, so look for the positives.. You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon
    427 days ago
  • DWROBERGE
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    427 days ago
  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
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    428 days ago
  • MARINGAL
    I think you might have to change your thinking pattern instead of being so darn negative, look at this journey as a new adventure. It isn't about changing your eating habits, it is about changing your mindset, your lifestyle and everything about yourself. A challenge? Yes! But worth it? Absolutely. You have a lot of work to do, start working on your emotions without numbing yourself with food. Are you drama free? I suggest you live that way. Consider living with integrity and dignity your highest priority and maybe you will just figure out the best way to live a rich and healthy life.
    428 days ago
  • JEANY51
    You can do this. Sometimes it's minute by minute but it will be worth it!
    428 days ago
  • GGRSPARK
    One thing I will say, it is not a gruelling journey. Once you have made the decision and are ready you will find it only takes a few new strategies and your success will prove that to you. You may enjoy this.
    428 days ago
  • JOHNMARTINMILES
    Great attitude!
    428 days ago
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