Working At It
Tuesday, January 22, 2019
Feeling positive today. Weighed myself, 222, which isn't a surprise since that's been my "set point," for a while. It's also a number that seems to repeat itself in my life. My address is 222. My kids graduate in 2022. I did my PT Exercises this morning. I have bone spurs in my SI joint which cause pain that I can manage quite well as long as I do the PT Exercises and some Pilates Stretches twice a day. I let them go for a while and boy, am I in pain. Ouchie. It will take a few days to get the pain beat back. My hips are so tight they feel fused. But I felt super motivated this morning, despite the pain, and did several loads of laundry and held a two and a half hour grocery shopping event. Because by the time I buy the goods, haul them home, carry them in and put them away, it feels like an event. My mantra right now is the word "commitment." I blogged previously about a podcast I listened to that discussed commitment, strong commitment, and to really think about what you commit to and prepared to follow through on those commitments. You do it, even if it's raining. Even if company comes over. Even if the phone rings, Even if you don't feel like it. Like the gal said, "You take the commitment to yourself so seriously that you better be in the ER if you even consider breaking that commitment." I'm taking those words to heart. And even though I'm back to my "starting point" weight-wise, I feel okay about it. No shame or guilt in the back of my head or despair over the "wasted" time because I think for some reason the last two or three weeks I've made a lot of progress mentally and emotionally on this journey and it's good. It feels good to be at peace with my body and food and fitness.