Something is happening
Wednesday, January 23, 2019
I am a compulsive eater, have been since childhood.
It's a horrible, horrible way to live.
I started sparking anew this year and am on a 22 day streak.
I am being swaddled by SP with new thoughts, new habits starting to take over, and most of all, hope for the future.
I am starting to make profound changes in my life. In just these 3 weeks, I've seen myself try to lapse into sabotaging myself, going on binges, and just giving up. I did not give in to those. I felt the spark structure move in and block those thoughts. This program is actually working for me.
One of the biggest things SP does is keep me in today. I used to live in the future ("I'll lose 50 pounds, then my life will be better"). But I was clueless as to how to achieve that. SP has given me the day by day tools to do that. I realized I don't dwell on my future wishes. I'm living each day.
I use Premium Coaching. I think the extra structure it gives is what is helping me, giving me the remedial organizational skills I lack. I was at such rock bottom when I started. I kind of rolled my eyes over the daily program page of Premium Coaching, thinking, " I already know all this stuff." I went through the motions, but opened my mind to listening and taking it in; after all, I had no place else to turn.
One member, RONDAJO56, reached out to me several times at the beginning, when the site was overwhelming and confusing, and gave me some tips on places to go in the site. I can't tell you how much those helped me.
I am profoundly grateful.