And So It Goes
Saturday, January 26, 2019
Last weekend my sister came and picked up a bunch of cat stuff. Food, litter, toys, and a heated cat bed I thought was going to be the hardest thing to part with, because if Musky had a favourite thing, that'd be it. It was difficult, but not as much as I'd thought, and I was able to let it go.
This week, everything else went to Goodwill, and that was far harder than I expected. There were the everyday things, litter pans and the pet carrier, but there was also the most visible, and therefore visible absent, items and those hurt.
One was a cat tree I bought for her right after I got her. Ten years on, and she'd only scratched away the carpet from one place on the back. Other than that, she used it to sleep and to beg to be lifted up onto my lap, because it's been sitting by my desk for so long I didn't even think to put it on the list of stuff to give away at first. I am so used to it being part of my office, of it being right there.
The other was a bedside pet ramp I bought when she started having trouble getting up and down the boxes she usually used as stairs. I ordered it at the end of November, and I wish I'd picked it up sooner, so she'd have had more than a month with the easier trip up and down to the bed.
Her oldest thing and her newest thing, and I had to let them both go this morning.
I've kept momentos. Her collar is now wrapped around the water glass I used to keep on my night table, because we both knew that water was hers the second I closed my eyes. I also have her first food dishes, which she hasn't used in years and which I found when taking things out of the cupboard. I was going to put that in the box to give away, but changed my mind at the last minute. I don't know what I'm going to do with it, or why I kept it given how long it's been since she's used it. I figure I can always give it away later, whereas if I figure out something to do with it after I've given it away, I can't get it back. Two of the baskets I bought for non-heated cat beds will now be used to store linens, once I clean out my closet.
I couldn't hold onto the ramp and the cat tree, having them fill space while not being used. Someone else can use them now. But the spaces are empty, all at once again, and that was more difficult than I'd expected.