Day 44 - procrastination....

Procrastination is probably one of my bigger issues.

Today, I started off another day with absolutely no motivation, depressed, overwhelmed and close to a panic attack..... was planning to use the weekend to catch up on work and get a head start into the week. Well, family time got in the way (which is a great thing), and I didn’t feel this weekend like doing work work. Yet, since I was already feeling guilty about not doing work work, I didn’t enjoy the family time either. It’s kind of a downward spiral. So I went to bed last night with this feeling of dread about the workload for the week.

I have read every self improvement book, every book about time management and procrastination there is (yeah, probably not really....) and I consistently don’t apply what I know would help me. Planning the day, planning for few things to achieve and focus on completion. But instead I end up with a to do list longer than my arm and I get little done.

So this morning I reduced my to do list for the day to 3 things to complete, and alas......I did. And....I am in a much better place mentally and emotionally this evening. Still some dread of what else I need to get done this week, but I am positive I will make a dent this week.

I want to commit to taking the time to plan my day, at work, plus what I eat and (eventually) excercise. I know that stress and procrastination is a toxic combination for me that contributes to my overeating and pretty much not caring about myself and my health. Again, a downward spiral.

The good thing is, that with my mind clearing up when I dont eat carbs, my focus being on work when I am at work, and not smoking the next cigarette and/or the next carb fix, I have a fair fighting chance to get on top of things again. I know that if I can sort this out and I get my work priorities in order, all other things will stay in place, I will continue to eat healthy, stay off cigarettes, perhaps start off exercising and eventually take weekends back and do stuff with the family. Everything is going to be fun again and.....they lived happily ever after..... 😀

So, my commitment now is to focus, at work, on the truly important versus the seemingly urgent. Identify 3-4 things to be completed per day and get on top of my workload by end of next week. I CAN, and I WILL. I know how to do this. Must.....Focus.....!!!

Day 44 - 34lbs down (re-gained 1lbs after the salty wings yesterday....) - only 166 lbs or 556 days to go to 225lbs
9 days smoke free