What do you do when you are standing in-front of what looks like a GIANT?! That Giant can represent a metaphor for a problem, a situation, that scary thing looming in front of you.
My mind has been filled with thoughts of my Charter Peer Review Interview tomorrow morning. (Wednesday: 09:30 GMT)
To give a little background on this, I went through this final stage in my journey to Charter Member status of the Institute of Occupational Safety and Health nearly 3 years ago.
It was scheduled for the day before my late husband's very first Chemotherapy treatment for his cancer. Not thinking I had any recourse to reschedule the appointment that was set four months prior to our knowledge of his disease I travelled on train to the location and stayed the night in preparation for the interview.
Needless to say, my mind started to crumble under the nearly hour presentation and following questions. Thoughts of needing to get the train home and be with my husband took over my concentration and after leaving the room I wanted to collapse in the hallway corner until I could stop shaking.
Although I was terribly disappointed two days later when the results arrived that I had not been successful I was not overly surprised. My husband urged me that as soon as I could redo the interview to arrange it.(In fact he left that message in his book of messages to me) Through much correspondence with the Institute and their complete understanding of my emotional state during the interview, they assured me that whenever I was ready for a redo to let them know.
It was not until last year that I reached the point of emotionally preparedness to put myself through this. I learned that I am not where I was back in 2016 and have also gained much additional professional knowledge.
I am ready, and this is how I am focusing on the interview.
After church on Sunday I was talking about this to one of the ministers in training and how this is my second attempt. He is well aware of how things have been for me these past couple of years because he knew my husband personally and professionally. When I had finished speaking, he right away started referring to David and his fight with Goliath. He said how David had practised using his sling shot before when he was defending the sheep from lions and bears, so he had no fear about his encounter. He also saw Goliath as just a common man that had been spouting his mouth off, and not this huge giant that his contemporaries saw. He had the right perspective on the situation. He also had 5 stones with him in his bag so he was prepared with an ample armoury. Since he was a man of God he knew that God would be with him.
I re read the encounter and could see what a great parallel this was for my encounter tomorrow. My previous attempt was my practice run; My so called lions and bears. I know how this interview is conducted and mostly what to expect. I am seeing the three person panel as just regular individuals and not some looming force to be reckoned with. (in fact I am thinking of them as three of my students that are wanting a bit of clarification on some health and safety points.) My stones are my taking the time to prepare what type of things I might be asked and knowing that I am not alone in this situation. I picture my late husband being there already waiting for me to show up tomorrow morning.
Obtaining this Charter status is my giant. I am going to this Peer Review Interview with my sling shot and 5 stones with confidence in my ability because I have practised this before and am ready!
Tomorrow I am slaying a giant!
YES! The giant WAS slain and I am now a CHARTERED HEALTH AND SAFETY PROFESSIONAL!!!
I know my late hubs is super proud!!!
My certificate is dated 14 FEBRUARY 2019!
What better Valentine's Day gift could I have asked for! I feel it was Graham's way of letting me know he was with me when I did my peer review!!! I will always see that date and think of receiving another wonderful Valentine's day card from this precious man!