Changes for today - Not yesterday or tomorrow - but, today.
Monday, February 25, 2019
As I have mentioned countless times before - I am an emotional eater and I get easily stressed out when I have too many things going on at once.
I am trying to find a good alternative to my life's chaos and I think I may have found something that will work well with me.
I am going to purchase a planner that I am able to make notes in by the hour - I am going to plan my day by the hour all the way down to eating lunch or bathroom breaks. I NEED to keep myself accountable for a wee bit just to get myself into a rhythm that I can work with. To avoid the chaos of my new life.
It's horrible being a single mom, doing 40 hour work weeks plus an additional 15+ school hours a week. I NEVER see my girls or have time to do mundane tasks such as cook better meals or just relax and watch a movie with the kids anymore.
It's likely I am just trying to fill up my entire day to ignore the fact that my marriage bombed and I am unhappy. BTW... today is my marriage anniversary to that nightmare!
I'd be a big fat liar if I didn't say it wasn't affecting me a little bit though.
I'm still trying to find myself and my new norm... but, I miss my babies and I need to figure out a way to incorporate them back into my life again somehow.
For today... I can't promise tomorrow and I know I didn't do it yesterday... but, today - I plan to work out using my skimble app and picking a random exercise to do when I get home. I can and will do this everyday that I can. Hoping to keep myself accountable.