wednesday march 6th
Wednesday, March 06, 2019
Today i went to the store to buy a couple tshirts, leggins, shorts for the gym. I had a moment of total desperation when i saw myself in the mirror as i was trying on a sports bra. Wow, my body. I thought, "is it still worth that i put efforts in trying to look better and be more healthy?" I felt destroyed. Oof. Thankfully i talked myself back into a more positive state of mind. Of course it's worth it. Even if my body is never slim, never scarless, never like the body of a slim 20 years old. It was just hard to realize all the work that is yet to be done and how easy it is to get discouraged, disgusted with oneself.
I love my body, i love it because it is strong, resilient, it put up with all the sh*t and abuse i put it through and it's ready for all the good that's coming. it's okay to age. It's okay to have gone through - and out - of hard times. we are survivors!