Kicking the medicine up a notch
Wednesday, April 03, 2019
I went in for my checkup with the psych. I sense a little change but it's subtle. After some talking it was decided to up my lexapro dose. Just before I got there I picked up my refill, so it's not going to last as long. I need to find a cost effective way to get my 1.5 pills a day. I'm hoping it helps or it might get doubled, which is what he wanted to do initially.
I feel a little better. It's not dramatic. Sometimes I feel sort of apathetic but not full zombie mode. Some nights I'm sort of "bleh". I can let go of little stuff and not have it hijack my day.
My energy level hasn't risen and that's what I want the most. I get more satisfaction out of chores at least. I dusted under the bed, even snaked a duster between the bed and the wall in that hard to reach part (I could feel my shoulder straining so I had to do it slowly..don't need a new tear) and it was so satisfying when it was done. Some things are still tedious though, like transcribing science talks where you have no frame of reference. I can focus on a stupid phone game like a laser though.
I don't get sucked into online comment threads as much and my Twitter checking has gone way down. I skip most of it now instead of catching up on what I missed, and then I just look at a few news stories/celebrity pictures. I unmuted a bunch of people then remembered why I muted them in the first place. I need to be brave and cut them loose, It's not like they're asking where I've been.
All in all, not great but better than before. Hope the extra dose helps!