Long time no see
Saturday, April 06, 2019
Hello dear blog, it's been awhile! :)
I had so many ups and downs in my life since I last used Sparkpeople, wow...
I started using it again just yesterday, to track food, and I suddenly realised that Sparkpeople can help me again, because it did help me in the past. I loved this site. There is something true and authentic about it, it feels like it's made by people who really care about helping people.
Tracking food has always helped me stay on track with my food intake. I bought a used tradmill as well because I wanted to workout at home. I'm trying to lose weight because I just don't feel good in my body, I have pain in my back, my knees, my neck, I'm not comfortable... I weigh about 190 pounds right now. My goal weight used to be 125 pounds but to be honest, I would aim at 145 because I'm over that phase in my life when I wanted to LOOK like a pretty sexy girl... to be honest I just want to feel healthy...
I have a pretty rough time with depression, negative thoughts, anger-issues. Sometimes I feel like I fail at everything, and it's my fault. Other times I feel that all this is happening for me, it's a lesson that will make me smarter and stronger. and I keep jumping from one mindset to the other. I have good days and bad days... good minutes and bad minutes... ever changing.
Here's to a healthy spring !