4/26/2019 Praying Through This
Friday, April 26, 2019
Yesterday I had a little money and a major craving for a high calorie/fatty Chinese lunch combo, and as I was contemplating on giving in to this temptation I began to cry. Not just cry but I really sobbed and felt so helpless and sick to my stomach. A little part of me even begged myself to NOT choose the Chinese lunch combo and go for something healthier. It was at this very second that I started to pray for the strength to make a better choice. I prayed to help myself because I'm at 402 now and this is really hard on my body. I prayed for strength to actually make a better choice.
After praying I made myself get up then made a burger with some tater tots. Although it was not a real healthy choice I knew it was way better than eating Chinese. I felt the power from my prayer. I even went for a little walk.
Today I am happy to say that I still feel the power from my prayer. It passes my mind that I may still lose focus but I'm trying to quite that thought with the power that's inside me right now. I feel hopeful and am actually doing more though out the day.
CURRENT WEIGHT: 402
WEIGHT LOSS PLAN:
Chair workouts and modified exercises (wall planks, squats, upper body, walking small distances for now)
Eat within my calorie range, buy food to make at home, no take out for 30 days, eat more vegetable, eat less meat, cut down on sweets.
Left Knee pain, left foot pain, neuropothy in both feet/hands, back/hip pain, carpal tunnel, Right shoulder, wrist weak, hands weak, numb fingers
SHORT TERM GOALS: to be reached by 05/26/2019
Be consistent in my plan for the next 30 days don't eat any fast food.