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Friday, May 24, 2019

Yesterday's plan was to sleep in until 730pm to catch up on much needed rest, but at 548am I shot up ready to start the day, but I knew that less than 4 hours was NOT good, so I closed my eyes again and did drift off for about 30 more minutes, and woke up again and at that point, I was up.

I had an an early appointment to get a little touch up and trim on my hair at 8am.. When I walked in the door my cousin couldn't believe how much it had grown in 6 weeks.I was running on coffee all morning then finally ate lunch around 1130am. Had tuna on a western bagel and and orange.

Luckily work was relatively quiet and I was just doing some follow up emails and cleaning up spreadsheets because I was a tad cranky due to lack of sleep ... Had a mid afternoon snack of yogurt with sugar free butterscotch pudding.

For dinner I made grilled chicken with peppers and onions in a low carb extreme wrap with some garlic aioli then I plopped my tired self onto the couch. I was feeling, crazy - lazy, that overtired I can't think, I don't want to move, nothing makes sense feeling (think really buzzed bordering on drunk)... I ended up watching this bizarre movie I had never heard of before with Keanu Reeves and Wynona Ryder.. There were other people in it, but they were in the background, I'm pretty sure the only dialogue in the entire movie was these two extremely quirky, lonely characters thrown together at a destination wedding and ended out bringing out the best in each other..

I got up and grabbed the Breyers no sugar added, Sea Salted Caramel ice cream and a teaspoon and stood at my kitchen island slowly eating a few spoonfuls.. I stopped myself before I got out of control. You know that point, if I stop now i'm good, if I don't I'm gonna eat what's left. Considering my state of mind, I'm actually rather surprised I stopped.

Then I started to watch another movie and as I lay on the couch, a mustered the strength to go to the cabinet and get the peanut butter and the low-fat cinnamon graham crackers.. this time I was careful, and I took out the number of crackers I wanted to make sure I didn't go crazy with the peanut butter.. it was a brand new jar and I could have done some serious damage if I did not handle it in that fashion.

I was hoping that I would pass out really early since I was so over tired but that did not happen, 1015pm appears to be the bewitching hour according to my fitbit.. last night sleep totals were 5 hours and 36 minutes, better than 4 hours, 4 minutes, but I am still in a bit of a deficit. But I feel good this morning after my #cko workout.

This weekend is going to be fantastic. Wedding tomorrow for a son's childhood friend which will be crazy fun, but there will be some sorrow too as his momma passed last summer after a long bout with cancer.. Sunday is my god mother and her husband's (my sister's god father) 50th wedding anniversary. I was the flower girl at just shy of 4 years old.... then Monday is just kicking back.. Sadly my poor hubby has to work Sunday, right after the party, then all day Monday, still filling in for a short staff.

My face to face today is a bit different.. it is stage 3 of my hair transition to my natural color. I am excited at each step and know I would never have moved forward with this bold step if I was not self confident in my self. This path we walk together is a firm foundation for trying new things and pushing the limits of self discovery!

Have a fantastic Friday. As you celebrate this Memorial Day weekend, remember the true meaning behind the holiday. Say a prayer for those we have lost and keep those who go on without them close in your heart.

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    lvoe your blog
    147 days ago
    I like your natural color! Enjoy your weekend! emoticon
    147 days ago

    okay here are two food questions..

    What is a 'western' bagel?

    How do you create your yogurt with sugar free instant pudding?
    any particular plain yogurt? Greek?other?
    I am guessing this is a WW recipe.

    147 days ago
    Wow! Lots going on (and what's new with that in your life, right!?!) Wow!!!! I have to say, I think your transition color is beautiful on you!!! I think it brightens up your face (not that your smile doesn't anyhow, but just sayin').

    Have a fun weekend. Hope you get some sleep. Step away from the peanut butter! LOL
    147 days ago
    Great plan! When I take the step of weighing or counting out what, I don't eat ALL there is. If I don't weigh or count, the plan by default is to eat all.there.is.

    Good job in getting a little more sleep.

    Your weekend is going to be absolutely fun!
    147 days ago
  • YMWONG22
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    147 days ago
    Looking great, keep up the good work.
    147 days ago
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