July 5, 2019

I've been off and on with Spark this past year. My Sister in law passed away in April of last year, my brother passed away suddenly in June, then our Son almost died with a blood clot in his heart, and today we got final results back about our oldest daughter. She thought she had cancer again and has been through a gamete of tests the last few months. She doesn't have cancer, but still looking at possible an autoimmune disorder, such as Lupus or MS, something like that. Work has had ALOT of changes and stress, so has church. Beyond describable. My friend that I had been working with to go hiking the Colorado trail really hasn't done too much to prepare, and with the stresses in my life we put it off. I've been barely hanging on the last several months. I've gained about 12 lbs back, which could be so much worse. And by all rights in past years would have been. But I praise God for His wisdom and mercy he's given me. And Spark People. Because even though I haven't utilized the site, it's been there, and helped me to remember where I came from. My husband and I took a MUCH NEEDED two week vacation. Now I'm ready to wrap my head around all of this and go again. I've begun water aerobics again, working through the pain, I'm looking at what worked for me eating wise, and will continue on. Now I've got about 35 lbs instead of 25 to lose. Praying, yet praising, because I know I can do it.