Sunday, July 07, 2019
Every time i come back here, it's because i feel lost. Trying to make sense, to find a reason to finally do this. With all the other social media outlets, it's hard to keep up, especially when my health / physical activities were pretty much out of hands, hehe. I just keep thinking "i'll start running when i feel physically better" or even just, "i'll start to go on walks again when my life isn't so busy" making excuses like this, i just end up finding the bottom every time. I'm not sure i know how to do the discipline thing, to have the will to put in the work, not just with my physical shape but with everything that requires efforts and work and consistency in my life, like it will just magically happen to me, like it's owed to me or something.
I quit ssris completely on the first of July after using them for a year to help me with major depression. So far i am feeling good, light side effects but nothing too serious, nothing like what you've read online. I don't think my medication made me put on weight, i'm very capable of doing so by myself :) but i do think it kept me from losing any weight at all. Like everything was frozen. I'm excited to see what's going to be different once my body goes back to its usual ways of functioning.
I will now have to stop living in excuses land and try to be more in reality and in the action. If you have any tips or good articles, feel free to share them with me