I am back, again
Monday, August 19, 2019
I wonder in this will be the last time I post a blog that starts with the title, I am back again. It didn't take me long to fall off the wagon the last three times. I wonder sometimes if it is possible to actually stick with it after failing so many times. Last year I lost 25 lbs, the most I ever lost. I have gained back 17 of those lbs.
But that was not my first time. Over the last 18 years, I have gained & lost the same 10-15 lbs many many times. I really just want this horror of heart burn, heart palpitations, body pains, bloating, balance & muscule loss to end. I no longer want to be limited by my weight.
I give up in the midst of family health crises, my own health issues, friendly food pushers, even more friendly food pushers & never being home more than 2 days in a row. Much of it unexpected. Last week, Monday I drove family members home after a visit, then Wed-Fri spent living out of a suitcase while my brother had out of town heart surgery. This week is no better. Only home on Tuesday. I am never home long enough to develop a game plan. And when I am home, my time is spent washing dishes, doing laundry & cleaning in preparation for next week of running.
So I ask the question, can a person fail at weight loss as often as I have & actually come back & do it plus keep the weight off? I am feeling pretty tired, frustrated & angry at myself.
In angst, your friend Julie