Psalm 119:49-56; Jeremiah 33:1-13; Matthew 19:16-22
I asked sincerely for God to break me in 2008. I am convinced God led me to the place where I saw the need for less of me and more of Jesus. He's still working on me eleven years later. My experience has been traumatic at times, easy smooth at others.
Overall I really do still seek to do justice, love mercy, walk humbly with my God, as I pray about everything and then do the next needful thing. I think God steers us easier when we're in motion.
unlike sysiphus's rock that just went up the hill and down the hill and up the hill because it was his punishment to be eternally frustrated.
I take comfort in the word God gives me in my affliction, in His Name as I lay awake listening to His songs in the night.
I've since figured it was right when I said we are like a bowl of mixed nuts, and God knows just how hard to crack us open without destroying the meat of us so to speak. It is less painful at times to be clay rather than marble. But marble gets to be washed and oiled after chiseled, and clay gets to be baked until hardened.
So, I'm glad God is "the decider". So even when it seems desolation is the plan, the Creator promises restoration for those with whom God is well pleased. The flocks will again pass under the hands of the one who numbers them. And Jesus did say, I know my sheep and they know me. They know my voice and they follow me. And the good shepherd combines all the flocks into one fold so that we all may find peace.
I still agree with C.S. Lewis' observations from the Earth's laboratory of suffering: "God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."
So, in the last of the daily readings, we find the rich young man who wished to be saved by his own efforts AND to have all the comforts of a self-absorbed life. He wanted to halve his cake and eat it two. Er, I mean, well you know. But it doesn't work that way in the real world. God allows us to be stript of our illusions about ourselves during suffering, for in fact we all think way to highly of ourselves than we ought to.
But that's enough to think about at this time, eh? Do we cling to what we know or put our trust in the One who designed us to enjoy Him and each other forever? Its quite possible to spend so much time curved in on ourselves we forget how to stand up for the needy and reach out to hold a hand in comfort.
So, what say you?