Good morning everyone! Just thought I would touch base as it's been awhile.......things are going well here! Down 32 pounds total so far!!!! I figured out yesterday that it's 12 weeks until New Year's Eve.....I set a goal for myself to lose 20 pounds from now to the end of this year. It will be amazing to say I lost 50 pounds in 2019!!!!
I have really been working on my thoughts. Thoughts around everything in life. I am learning my thoughts are what trigger my eating of not so healthy foods and overeating. My eating habits have very much been just responses to life. I am 100% an emotional eater.
Example: Monday at the football game the guy next to me was yelling at his son. The son out on the field could do no right in that man's eyes......the kid would miss a tackle and he would stand up and yell at him from the stands. If he got a tackle he would clap but not say anything at all. This caused my hair to stand up on end....I just wanted to say to him "Sir do you really think your son was thinking "I am going to miss this tackle?" You could see the poor kid was trying his hardest out there at all times.
Everyone around me was getting bothered by this man's responses to his son.
What was my first thought/response?
I wanted to eat!!!!
What does eating do?
Suppress my negative feelings I was getting from my thoughts and take my mind off of the guy yelling at his son.
My response most of the time to my thoughts, especially negative, is to eat because eating makes me feel better.
This is where I have been spending a lot of work! It's not easy, some days it really sucks to sit there in my thoughts, but you know what? I am the CEO of my life and I can change ANY THOUGHT I want to change and I can also just SIT with my thoughts. I don't need to "feed" them. Yes it doesn't feel good sometimes like with the guy at the football game......but is life really all roses and daisies? No, it's not.
For many many years I emotionally ate....happiness.....sadness..
....tired......upset......I ate to suppress them all!!
It was interesting......as I sat there....the people around me all began to start eating. Even the grandma on the other side of me, who never eats at the game, was eating. I sat there wondering just how many of these people were also eating to suppress their thoughts and yet they didn't even realize this is the real reason they were eating.
Really get to know your body, your responses, your thoughts to every moment in life. Listen to your mind and what you are thinking and what you are feeling. This is where the real work is done and where real success happens!!! It's not counting calories or points or following a specific diet. I actually gave that all up awhile ago. No food is off limit for me. That created way too much drama in my mind. There are foods I don't eat on a daily basis like cookies and chips for example but I still eat them!!!! I just had a huge piece of cheese cake for my birthday a few weeks back and Sunday I had a small bag of chips. I do plan my food for the day and write it down.....I do not count calories.......I use to be in WW and counted points but not any more.......and I do plan the "not every day" type of foods 1-2 times a week.
Change really does start with your thoughts!
I hope the person reading this has an amazing day!