Quitting Smoking Day 17 10/28/2019
Monday, October 28, 2019
Well things have been rough. I quit smoking on the 11th of October. It has been a nightmare. My craving have been decent. I mean I did expect to have cravings, but the food intake is driving me crazy. I have gained 9 pounds. I am so angry with myself. I just don't seem to be able to stop myself. This week I am getting strict again though. No more eating anything outside of my plan and no more eating just because. I am chewing gum to help when I want to eat something but it isn't my scheduled time for food. I am not going to allow myself to slide backwards any longer. I am really worried about gaining all my weight back. That would really suck. I have worked too hard to get the weight off. I am going to be kicking up the workouts to hopefully get this weight off quicker. I need to do something. I am rededicating myself to my weight loss. I am also not going to start smoking again either. It just isn't going to happen. Everyone is so proud of me for everything I have been accomplishing but all I am seeing is the fact that I gained back almost 10 pounds. I need to see what they see. It is hard though. I think I will just work harder to get the weight back off. This last week I really slacked and allowed myself things I don't normally allow. I will just have to be diligent about things. I do not want to go back to smoking nor do I want to gain a lot of weight back. I feel so horrible about my weight gain. I think that has hit me really hard. I am pretty down on myself today. Everyone says not to worry about it. That I can't try to lose weight and try to quit smoking. I say I am going to do both and I am going to succeed at it. I am not going to fail. I let myself slide this last week and it is not going to happen again. I will do this. You can do anything you set your mind to.