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I'm Not Old Matt, Even When I Don't Do Well

Monday, October 28, 2019

I'm frustrated. I cannot seem to get my weekend eating right, and it often bleeds into Monday. This weekend was particularly bad. My eating was so out of control that I felt ashamed to even try to track it mentally, let alone in SparkPeople, so I didn't it. I also hardly moved. This morning, I realized that my behavior has officially moved back to behaviors that Old Matt exhibited. The only difference is that I've got a lot of folks keeping me accountable and I actually make sure that I eat vegetables. No, that's not entirely true. There is a huge amount of difference between my eating now and then. For one, I can control what I eat. I workout regularly. I actually care and think about my health. I foster the growth of those around me. I manage my depression. Etc.
One of the other big changes is that I know how to make goals and parse them out to reach my goal weight in a believable time. I also understand discipline, although I struggle to maintain it. I know the issue nowadays is a) it's easier to maintain good habits than to do it the first time. I'm back to trying to rebuild those habits. b) I workout. c) I don't always avoid things that are hard. d) I work hard to support the people around me. e) The overall quality of food that I eat is better. I don't eat ramen very often or canned food. At least 80% of my food has genuine nutritional content. When I make my lunches, I follow the formula of 1-2 cups vegetables, 1 serving carbs, and 1 serving protein.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that the fundamentals are there. I just need to re-focus and rebuild. I have a certain body shape I want to get to and I want to-... no, I NEED to look good without a shirt. I'm tired of my belly. I know how to write food and workout plans. I need to do it. I've got about 6 months. I can do this.
Sleep long, stay strong, and keep on keeping on!
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  • BARBIEE52
    Even tho' it was a bad weekend, you still recognized that it was & now how you decide to make it so much better by writing out your realistic plans...you sound so determined & I'm supporting you 100%. When you take a step backward, tell yourself that you're worth taking those next steps forward, because you are!
    Stay positive..you can do this!!
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    45 days ago
  • NOCALORIES
    Thank you for writing this blog and sharing how weekends are a challenge. You are a benefit to the 5% Fall Challenge. I have a challenge eating right during the entire weekend, but being challenged to track what I eat makes me think before I bite.
    46 days ago
  • NANCYPAULINE
    This is an honest reflection; acknowledgement is a step toward the discipline you want and will find.
    46 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Pack something ahead of the weekend to take in your vehicle wherever you go. One of the weekend days. If you did not plan to go out, DO IT ANYWAY.. Hit some balls at the park, offer to walk SOMEBODY'S dog! LOL!

    Eat that special meal out, after you work out, make that mal a treat, not a punishment. Make this weekend routine at home a smaller time frame gradually. Pull a chunk of that time away from in the house, make a grocery list, not trolling the frozen foods or bakery for "poison" foods. I used to picture the crappy foods with bugs crawling on them. Major appetite-killer... emoticon
    You can do this, picture what shape you want in a few months, work backwards from there, it will be more motivating.
    47 days ago
  • JUNETTA2002
    You can do this just start small like 1/2 the weekend or even a healthy breakfast and work from there
    47 days ago
  • BCHARIE
    Sometimes when I get in a "habit" of not doing the right stuff, I make a plan to do something during that period of time that seems to be an issue. It might be rough for an entire weekend, but you could try some different activity that would disrupt the weekend "binge". Just an idea.. Sounds like you are doing really well!

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    47 days ago
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