I'm Not Old Matt, Even When I Don't Do Well
Monday, October 28, 2019
I'm frustrated. I cannot seem to get my weekend eating right, and it often bleeds into Monday. This weekend was particularly bad. My eating was so out of control that I felt ashamed to even try to track it mentally, let alone in SparkPeople, so I didn't it. I also hardly moved. This morning, I realized that my behavior has officially moved back to behaviors that Old Matt exhibited. The only difference is that I've got a lot of folks keeping me accountable and I actually make sure that I eat vegetables. No, that's not entirely true. There is a huge amount of difference between my eating now and then. For one, I can control what I eat. I workout regularly. I actually care and think about my health. I foster the growth of those around me. I manage my depression. Etc.
One of the other big changes is that I know how to make goals and parse them out to reach my goal weight in a believable time. I also understand discipline, although I struggle to maintain it. I know the issue nowadays is a) it's easier to maintain good habits than to do it the first time. I'm back to trying to rebuild those habits. b) I workout. c) I don't always avoid things that are hard. d) I work hard to support the people around me. e) The overall quality of food that I eat is better. I don't eat ramen very often or canned food. At least 80% of my food has genuine nutritional content. When I make my lunches, I follow the formula of 1-2 cups vegetables, 1 serving carbs, and 1 serving protein.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that the fundamentals are there. I just need to re-focus and rebuild. I have a certain body shape I want to get to and I want to-... no, I NEED to look good without a shirt. I'm tired of my belly. I know how to write food and workout plans. I need to do it. I've got about 6 months. I can do this.
Sleep long, stay strong, and keep on keeping on!