Good morning friends.. so yesterday was cold and dreary and I had planned on going to the 545pm kickboxing class, but when I got to the front door and opened it, the bitter windy face biting moisture smacked the idea right out of my head and I went inside and ran 3 miles on the treadmill which I had committed to do anyway and hadn't gotten around to it yet.. again due to the dreary day.. I had almost let it lead me, or rather hold me back.
I actually tracked yesterday too.. something I haven't really done other than making sure there are at least one items listed breakfast/lunch/dinner to get those wins.. which I don't use by the way, except I did donate fresh produce to a family in need and will more than likely continue to do that..
And that kind ties into the random things that took place yesterday that led my thoughts here this morning. I had commented on someone's post and said "Go team Go.. "whatever team you choose'.. or words to that effect and someone was "concerned" because "some people" have turned the new plans into a competition and told me I shouldn't refer to it that way...
But here's the thing.. I am not a competitor or rather, I do not feel the need to compete with others, only myself. When I think of a team, I think of a cohesive unit, working together to achieve something good. To me it does not mean trying "beat someone else" or that my team is better than another..
Also yesterday, I wished a long time friend happy birthday on FB, he thanked me and in his reply mentioned he thought that he was doing pretty great on his quest to get fit, but that my efforts put him to shame.. with an LOL.. and I smiled, but I also felt a pang of geez I hope he is kidding and isn't really using me as a measure for his accomplishments.,
Today's #dailyjournalchallenge prompt from Alexis asks us to name 10 things that bring us happiness... well along those lines, I can tell you that one of the reasons I AM TRULY HAPPY is because I do not compare myself to others. I do not feel envious of other's success or feel like I am less if I do not do the same things they do and achieve the same results they do. I also do not feel like I am better than someone else if my "performance" seems to be at a higher level then theirs.
I do not worry about if I am the most popular person in the room, or the prettiest, or the most fit or the least fit, or have the best hair. I do not concern myself with being the most knowledgeable or the funniest person in the crowd. I am me, upfront, honest, compassionate, and self confident.
I know these traits are not mine alone but are ones I have developed through my faith in God, and through the love and support of my parents who created the mold and then provided me with the tools to complete the figurine. I am far from perfect and at times, I can be fresh, and short tempered and get frustrated with others too.
Very often, because of my self confidence and demeanor have come comments that I am intimidating.. yesterday Mary posted something on FB that struck me and I am sharing it here..
It supports what I believe to my very core.. we are responsible for our own thoughts and actions, no one else! Unless someone specifically calls you out and says - I'm talking to YOU, if we are affected by something we see or read, it is on us, not the person who wrote it... If we ate that donut that our co-worker brought in, on us.. not them. If we fail to workout because it is raining and cold.. on me, not mother nature.
Reading into someone else's words especially here on the internet and interpreting their meaning and making assumptions is dangerous.
So those are my #wisewordsforwednesday.. do with them what you will.. As I have said before and will continue to say, it is your life, how you choose to live is on you and you alone!
Have a wonderful Wednesday.. I'm going to a meeting tonight and I will be paying.. first time in a few months, but it is what it is.. the point I need to work from to get to where I want to be!