For some odd reason I dropped the ball on my healthy living commitment, and now I am starting again.
I was so committed for so many years. Losing 102 lbs, and maintaining that loss for 9 years. I am Diabetic, and know I need to fuel my body with lots of healthy veggies and protein. But, about a year ago I began eating less healthy.
Why? I guess I just began feeling like it was too much work. Because, the truth is, healthy living is a lot of work. I was getting lazy, feeling some self pity that I had to let go of so many yummy foods. No more drive thrus, no more sugary treats, no just sitting around watching the boob tube. I had to plan meals, count calories, exercise daily. I began to think the healthy life sucked. Poor, Poor me.
A few months ago I even began eating drive thru fare, and sugary treats. Cheese burgers, onion rings, donuts, cookies, candy. I was doing this with the knowledge that, for me, a diabetic, those foods are suicide. And the weight began to creep back on....
I have gained 27 lbs. I do not want to keep it. So, I am getting back to work.....
As with any change, I know my biggest obstacle is my own mind. What I think about food and exercise has to change. No more "Poor me!". No more "Dang it! I don't wanna exercise!"
I am adopting an attitude of gratitude. Thank goodness I have working arms and legs and am capable of exercise. How nice that I have an abundance of healthy food where I shop. Hooray that I know how to cook, and have a working stove and microwave. I am so grateful that Sparkpeople is chock full of new and interesting recipes I can try, so I don't have to get bored with the same old food all the time.
Yes, I am going to have to follow my own advice. If I don't want to do it, if I hate the idea, DO IT ANYWAY! Changing my actions consistently, will eventually change my thoughts and feelings. And, as I progress in this lifestyle, I will get to enjoy the health benefits I am working for, and that is a true blessing.
So, here I go, beginning anew. It is my hope and prayer that I will have the strength to continue in this life long commitment to love myself enough to treat my body with the respect it is due.
A big thanks to SP for providing the tools for me to take care of myself. And to each of you, who are on this journey with me.