Friday, December 06, 2019
I know I shouldn't give up but not seeing results after 2 months is very hard. I keep gaining and losing these 5 lbs over and over and over. I know I have a thyroid issue and it takes longer for me but really?! I know I had the audacity to have cheese in my salad but a 2lb water gain? I understand sleep is important but how do I force myself to sleep when I just lay there and toss and turn. I'm back to 227, again.
I also did some research and this numbness and leg weakness might be permanent from the surgery. WHAT?! I don't want to feel like this forever. I had a nasty blister the other day and never knew as I couldn't feel it. I feel like my leg is just floppy when I try to run. Jumping is a joke. Jumping jacks, nope, not enough strength.
I know this is all negative talk. I go to the gym 3 times a week, one or twice with a trainer. I do Zumba. Most days I am over 10,000 steps. I swing dance. My legs are currently sore from Wednesday's workout. If I hadn't worked hard they wouldn't hurt.
Today is a new day and maybe I am just having a bad day. I have Zumba tonight and a Swing dance tomorrow, chorus rehearsal and swing dance lessons Sunday. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.