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Saturday, December 14, 2019

i am working so very hard to be positive and not to be negative and not to expect bad things and to try and remember good memories not bad
i said to my therapist every time i start to feel happy and admit i am happy something happens to set me right back again
well general election apart yesterday was most definitely a Friday the 13th.. it was not a good day
i get cautioned because someone else told me something and i spoke about it with other people who already knew... it is all a bit cloak and dagger and no one is supposed to know and no one is supposed to talk about it so obviously everyone does... i didn't even know the person wasn't in until i was told then it seems i was the last in my dept to be told
it upset me and annoyed me very much
because i thought things were going well and all and i was starting to feel happy and admit i was happy and the slap back down again
ok so not as great a fall as in the past when i have changed jobs but still enough of a slap to make my confidence go and to make me feel like i can't talk to people i work with etc (someone must have told bosses i was talking about it

deep breath and push on again... fight my way back to the surface of the water
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    Hoping you can find plenty of things to be positive about.
    408 days ago
  • VHAYES04
    410 days ago
    I fight this all the time. I've learned it's better to have your own way, not try to follow everyone else. That way you can have your joy, without letting others tear you down with their negative.
    410 days ago
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