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Mad at Myself

Friday, January 17, 2020

Hi All,

I don't know why the last 2 weeks I've been spiraling in sadness. It is getting harder to want to get up, I'm unmotivated to see people, I'm getting angry at my clients, I'm sad simply sad and don't want to exist.

I feel like if I cease to exist it wouldn't make a difference. I need to get over myself and suck it up, this is just life.

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    It may help to see your doctor about an antidepressant for winter months. January is always my worst month of the year so I go south when I can. This year I am home, but it is different because I am taking Contrave which controls appetite and cravings, and it's also an antidepressant.

    244 days ago
    Kelly, you are valuable, generous, kind, intelligent...and you make a difference in people's lives. Just wanted to give you a reality check! You make the world a better place. Not everyone is kind and giving.

    It's January. I have been more depressed the last few weeks and was just asking myself today why I can't pull out of it. Then I remembered it's January. Worst month of the year. Not much sunlight. Everyone is head down, pushing through the month, spending more time alone and indoors. All depressing.

    Hugs, and here's to spring around the corner!
    245 days ago
    Kelly, i don’t know what you are going through specifically that is causing your loss of interest in functioning; but I can say I am right there with you. I have Chronic Pain from 7 major back surgeries. It is hard to get motivated. Keep your chin up
    245 days ago
    Hi Kelly, it sounds like you may be suffering from depression. I'm not a medical professional of any kind, but I have battled chronic and major depression since age 12 (Seasonal Affective Disorder, as well) and I'm 65 yrs old now so I have a lot of personal experience with it. Finding it hard to get up, wanting to isolate and not see people, feeling angry and irritated, and not wanting to exist are all symptoms of depression. If you haven't seen your medical doctor in a while, you may want to consider making an appointment. My doctor found that I was low on Vitamin D and I had to take prescription strength for a while and then switch to a supplement. My daughter's doctor diagnosed her with anemia - there are physical things that could affect the way you feel emotionally. I also see a psychiatrist and take prescription medicines for depression, OCD, and GAD. Some people with depression can take medication(s) for a short while and then get better and don't needs meds forever. I've seen therapists over the years and that is helpful, too.

    Also, be kind and compassionate with yourself. People who are very sad or depressed can't just "suck it up" or "get over it." If we would, we could. Sometimes we need help.

    Take care. Wishing you all good things. emoticon emoticon
    245 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/17/2020 4:45:53 PM
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