Friday, January 24, 2020
My relationship with food shifted three days ago. I feel....like something big has changed? Three tiny days seems far too soon to tell, but I am hoping this is real and not imagined. Since starting the change I have felt the desire to eat and then thought "Huh, maybe I want to want to eat?" Food is still delicious and I have enjoyed all of my meals but when I have strong emotions and feel mysteriously propelled into the kitchen, nothing is calling my name once I arrive. Treats are available to make me feel less sad or less anxious, but nothing LOOKS like it will make me feel better. So, I leave, return to what I was doing and move on. Too soon to tell, but maybe this weight loss attempt will stick and I can get my life back. I wish I could say I am just as happy and confident no matter my size, but I am much happier and much more confident when I am a healthy weight and when I feel in control of my eating.