RIP My Sweet Boy
Friday, February 28, 2020
This is a really hard blog to write. It is with great sadness and loss that I have to tell everyone that I had to put JC down last week. He started to colic on Feb 14th. The vet came out and oiled him and gave him meds. He was no better by Saturday. He was rushed to the equine hospital. I was there with him every day. He wasn't getting any better. On Monday, they scoped him and found terrible ulcers and immediately was started on Ulcer meds.
Tuesday he was no better and was in a lot of pain. When I was leaving him Tuesday, I knew it was close to the end for him because he told me. He still wouldn't eat. At that point, they thought his colon had displaced. I got a call within 5 minutes of leaving the clinic that his heart rate went through the roof and they took him to surgery. They massaged his colon back into place.
Wednesday morning they called and said he still wasn't eating and was starving to death. They tried everything to get him to eat. The vet said they wanted to put him on a feeding tube. I just couldn't do it. He was in so much pain. It just wasn't fair to him. I couldn't keep him alive for me. That wasn't right. I told her no. He'd been through enough and it time for him to be out of pain.
That was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I've had him his whole life. He was with me when I lost my job, my mother and my sanity at times. He was my constant companion.
I never considered the impact that this would have on other people. I couldn't. I had to do what was best for him not for anyone else. He was the first horse my trainer got when she opened the barn, everyone considered him the barn mascot. The girl who leased him last year is starting a scholarship in JC's name at CCS (the barn name).
At first, I thought I would just give up on the horses and Jack. But, I can't do that. The horses have always been my purpose for what I do. I feel bad because we always spent so much time with JC that I don't know that Jack really knows who we are. I went to the barn yesterday and just talked to him and walked him.
I made it clear that Jack has to be gotten ready for me. It was almost like JC said, "Ive taken you as far as I can. It's time for you to move on."
RIP in my sweet boy. Run with your mom across the rainbow bridge