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Friday, February 28, 2020

I'm at a point where I feel like I desperately need with emotional issues. Even though I am surrounded by people and have a lot of contact with people, I feel incredibly isolated. I am really struggling with trying to build meaningful interactions and relationships, but I can't...there are some things I recognize as where yes, I am obnoxious, but I can't seem to stop myself from doing. There are other times where I have no idea what I am doing wrong and am so incredibly frustrated because it'll seem like I am building a really nice relationship, I think I'm doing everything right, but nope. It blows up in my face. I'm even more frustrated because I end up holding a ton in...I don't know how or to who I can vent in a positive manner...And then things blow up even more in my face when I snap and just completely go off the deep end or I just get way too needy. And I am completely not dealing with this in a healthy manner. I had been so proud of myself when I managed to lose 70 pounds. But now...with feeling so lonely and isolated, I am having a really hard time controlling my eating. And I have been drinking heavily. To the point of blacking out. And I will wake up in the morning to find a bunch of food missing from my fridge and cabinets, dirty dishes all over the place. It is turning into a vicious downward spiral of me feeling even worse and more isolated.
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  • THROOPER62
    Please get help emoticon emoticon
    406 days ago
  • LINDA7677
    Please seek help
    407 days ago
  • IMSALLYSTILL
    Sound like you need an addiction rehab and counselor.pkesde get the help you need. Praying g or you.
    407 days ago
  • RMPOKRZY
    Please get help! The blacking out aspect is really scary.
    407 days ago
  • RMPOKRZY
    It may also be worth trying therapy, especially since you've noticed a pattern already
    407 days ago
  • RMPOKRZY
    *hug* it's actually hard to build meaningful relationships, especially as an adult. It might be putting too much pressure on new friendships and on yourself. People can connect over lots of things, similar hobbies, life experiences, etc.
    407 days ago
  • MILLER-S
    I am very sorry you're struggling so much and my heart goes out to you. Feeling isolated is a very hard thing. Since you are struggling with building relationships, I would think finding a good qualified therapist or psychologist would help. I've been getting help from therapists, psychologists and psychiatrists since I was 19 and I'm 65 now and it has been very helpful. My adult daughter (in her 20's) also sees a therapist and it has helped her immensely. It took her a while to find one she "clicked" with, but when she did it made all the difference in how she felt about herself and how to interact with others.

    As for drinking heavily to the point of blacking out, I am scared for you. I don't have much experience with it, as I don't drink because of all my psychiatric medications (they don't interact well with alcohol), but it sounds like a very serious problem. If you've ever seen any type of professional for drinking in the past or you've gone to a 12 step program or anything like that, I'd encourage you to get back in touch with them. If you've never sought help before, then I think it would be a very wise idea to do that.

    I want to congratulate you on your 70 lb. weight loss - what an awesome accomplishment!!! Getting professional help might assist you with handling the issues you've mentioned and, in turn, help you stay on a positive track with your healthy eating habits, too.

    I wish you all the best. Take care, stay strong and please get help if possible.
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    407 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/28/2020 8:47:45 PM
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