Sunday, March 01, 2020
Yay! I’ve lost 20 pounds! I wish I could say it was due to some kind of effort on my part, but it was not, alas. The only way I usually lose weight is by getting really sick. I’ve been sick since Christmas. I think I’m passing some little kidney stones right now, too.
Before Thanksgiving my mother had a final three week battle with cancer. She was already destined to lose because it had spread to her lungs and filled them like a distant galaxy on the films. My sister managed to come say goodbye, which was a gift. Pneumonia is the old man’s friend, and the old woman’s, too. Thankfully my daughter and I had already moved Mom out of her rental home a month prior to her diagnosis, realizing that she would need to move to a care home, but not realizing how ill she was.
Our friends took us to San Antonio for Thanksgiving so that we wouldn’t have to be alone. My sister came out to see us for a couple of days, I think spending that final time with Mom together brought us closer. I grew up in Texas, as did my daughter, so we enjoy going back for visits. We have family and friends there. We even drove to the coast just to stick our feet in the ocean. Along the way we accidentally found some kind of government base, which made me quickly turn around.
When we returned home we had to take care of some final things. I found out that I qualified for disability, finally. That, I feel, was a parting gift from my mom, because I didn’t know how I was going to make it without her taking care of me, in exchange for my taking care of her. Now at least I can get by, though it isn’t really much. Medical comes with it, too, which is very needed. It’s a good thing I started taking Nortriptyline a while ago for my feet and my depression, and I think for my migraines. It takes so many meds to keep me alive and functioning. So I am functioning as best I can.