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Marching forward in 2020

Monday, March 16, 2020

I spent the majority of 2019 feeling sick. I honestly think I went into depression and hid it very well from everyone. I stopped doing everything except work. I put on my big smile and did my job then I went home and slept. When I took my vacation my husband was upset with me he wanted to go places and well we went away for 2 days the other days I slept! I did miss some work in the winter because I was actually sick with fever sore throat UTI's things that should keep a person home and in bed.

Well here it is March of 2020 I am starting to feel back to me. This past weekend I woke up on Saturday with a sore throat not feeling good slept till 11:30 got up drank some coffee took a cold pill and by 3:00 I decided I didn't want to stay cooped up. I showered got dressed and my husband and I left the house. In stead of going to our normal city we went the other direction to another city that we were not familiar with just for something different.

I had wanted another treadmill for a long time. I had this feeling that if I could walk in the house I would and if we put the treadmill in the garage were my husband spends most of his time and were he watches TV , then I could do that while spending time with him.

I am a procastenator, I find excuses to put off what I need to do. so I found a treadmill I wanted online and ordered it. I figure I can't afford it but I have two ways of telling myself it will be worth it.
1. For every pound I lose because of using the treadmill it will be worth $20.00
2. For every mile I walk/jog/run using the treadmill it will be worth $1.00
So my goal is to pay off this treadmill as soon as I can.

I am hoping that investing in this treadmill it will get me out of this bad funk/depression. I have been a member of SparkPeople since January of 2007. Not a faithful member but I jump on here off and on all the time. I join a team thinking I will participate with this one. But if I am a member of your team you have noticed that yea, I don't participate as well or as much as I thought I would. When I first joined Spark I was very dedicated lost weight made some good friends and really enjoyed this a lot. Then in one of my groups I asked for prayers for my neighbor she had twins born with severe health problems and the boys only lived a couple of weeks. Well one member, even though I and several team members told her not to open this link, kept getting after me for posting about this and saying this is not the place for this stuff. Well I had a hard time after this and that's when I basically lost all my interest in this, thinking I really needed a friend and I received an enemy.

I am hoping to get back to being active again on here so I can get back into shape and I hope I can gain some new friends. So If you are reading this and I am on your team please be patient with me. I am trying, I have feel I have come a long way. I want to be on the right path, I do need help so please reach out don't give up on me if it takes awhile for me to reply you might even have to get after me more than once or twice.

I want to thank the creators of SparkPeople for giving us a place like this. This place is so helpful in more ways than one.

Well I have to go get ready for work so we will keep in touch!
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    I have been dealing with my greater bouts of depression because of the winter..here is hoping that we can turn things around as spring approaches..hang in there..hopefully things will get better
    75 days ago
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