The roller coaster
Monday, March 16, 2020
This morning has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me. I started out feeling determined...today is day 7 of sobriety and another day of looking for a job. I then got really excited because I got a response to an application I submitted and have my first interview tomorrow. Even the dog was getting excited!!!
Then...the one ex boyfriend I regret having been with starting messaging through Facebook. The other guys I've been with are good men. Those guys I still talk to and get along with, even though romance ultimately wasn't for us. This guy, though, is the one bad apple. I broke up with him because he couldn't get his life together, had substance abuse issues, and, at the end, was abusive towards me. I don't want to see nor hear from him again. Period. Then, at the beginning of the year, he found me on Facebook. He tried sending 2 friend requests (from different accounts) and tried civil messages. I ignored him. Now this morning, he starts messaging me with stuff about seeing how fat and ugly I got (okay, I'm about 40 pounds heavier now). I have no idea where he came up with this part, but he tried saying that I'm only dating black men and that my parents are disappointed in me...He has no idea of who I have dated since I ended the relationship and my parents don't care who I'm with as long as the man is stable in finances and work and who treats me and the family well.
I'm trying really hard to laugh him off as being delusional, but there's still a part of me that's screaming with anger that he still...17.years.later. wants to control and hurt me. I hope that I was able to resolve the issue by blocking him and reporting harassment to Facebook.