Anniversaries and Struggles
Saturday, May 30, 2020
So it's been a while. I have a million excuses. I could list them all but at the end of the day life happened. It got crazy. It got busy. It got stressful. I stopped making me a priority and made my to do list my focus. The saving grace to that is at least my to do list was filled with physical activity, a lot of it, or the scale would look much different than it does today.
Losing weight and maintaining it is not just physical activity though. It is making good food choices and I have not been doing that. I am struggling with binge eating all the foods that taste so very good but aren't very good for me. This week has been better but there has still be some binge eating.
It feels like my spiral is ending and I am getting a better grip on my eating again. Through this process I realized that my mind set has changed from two years ago. I would have just kept eating the frustration of my food choices. The binge eating would have continued. Instead I have started to grab control of the situation and I am working towards forgiving myself and getting back on track. So I hit a huge boulder in the road. I have started to work my way around it instead of letting it stop me in my tracks.
On a happy note, yesterday was my two year anniversary of my weight loss journey. It is hard to see photos of myself from two years ago and think that it is actually me. I don't feel like that person anymore. I feel strong, powerful, confident, and healthy. What a change from feeling awkward, uncomfortable, exhausted, and ashamed.
So here's to keeping on and working towards goals, to finding the strength to turn a downward slide around, and forgiving myself (again) for not being perfect.