THE BEGINNING OF THE END
Tuesday, June 23, 2020
We've all heard that expression. We here at Spark refer to weight loss but the reality is that's just one chapter. Birth is the beginning of the end.From that point on we are going to all end up at the end. Everything in-between are the chapters of our life.
My husband is dying.When we met he had the biggest shoulders ever. He was abused as a child , sought food as his solace & the combination led to his strength & stubbornness. He wrestled in high school & this nerdy guy would be almost unbeatable. Nothing however is unbeatable and his time has come.I believe it's his fault as he never listened to Drs. until there was too much damage.The surgeon after his first shoulder surgery told me he thought my husband was just a big,fat guy until he cut into his shoulder.In his career he only ever had one man with muscles as big as my husbands.He was in shock.He triple stitched to prevent tearing.Well years have passed and last night I saw him without his shirt and saw spindly arms, sunken shoulders and knew it's gonna happen soon.I would like to say this is the hardest thing ever but that is yet to come.His expiration date is up to God but I hope for a little more time just to make peace, sort through things and prepare.I am blessed with beautiful son's but hope this chapter lasts a little while longer. PLEASE PRAY IT DOES.