You Win Some, You Lose Some
Friday, July 31, 2020
Boy, did I fall off the wagon last week. Thursday through Saturday, I stuck to my exercising and eating plan all day only to overeat to the point of discomfort at nighttime. On Sunday, I overate all day long and skipped out on exercising entirely for the first time since March (I do take rest days when I need them, but they still include a little bit of light walking, yoga, or whatever low-intensity activity I'm able to do). Monday is my weigh-in day. Gained 5 pounds since last week-- definitely some of it being water weight, I know, but I only weigh myself once a week, so that was this week's number. My diet over the weekend was high-carb and high-sodium so no surprise there. Overate at night again after that. So that was my loss this week. Five days in a row of unhealthy eating, five pounds (kind of, not really, we'll see this coming Monday) of weight gain. And the most crushing thing about it was that I was less than 2 pounds away from a normal BMI before all the binge eating! I was fully expecting to weigh in this week and finally see that huge milestone on the scale.
But I've been learning to look on the bright side. For one, I'll admit... I REALLY enjoyed all that lemon cake, chocolate, and peanut butter I indulged in over the weekend, lol. In fact, I noticed that I definitely enjoyed it more than I would have before I started watching and tracking what I eat. I think this is a good sign. It'll encourage me to keep things in moderation that should be in moderation!
For another, I know non-scale victories are essential, and I still have plenty. I'm fitting into jeans and shirts that I was ready to get rid of a few months ago because I thought I would never fit into them. I'm feeling confident in clothes I NEVER would've worn before-- namely yoga pants and crop tops. I continue to get better at cooking and find new, healthy recipes that I love-- especially for dishes from other countries. Turns out I LOVE borscht, cabbage rolls, and kasha varnishkes. And my workout performance continues to improve. I shaved another 20 seconds off my mile time today compared to a month ago while doing Day 12 of the 5k Your Way Walk/Jog Challenge. I'll have an even better mile time later in the program, and that's super exciting!
I know logically that it's never good to feel bad about myself or punish myself for my episodes of overeating, but seeing all these non-scale positive changes makes it so much easier to really believe that and put it into practice. I've been back on my exercise plan and eating healthy Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and so far today on Friday as well. I feel good about myself, and I know I can keep it up and hit that healthy weight milestone soon.